Lost // Tree

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growing a tree takes a long time but in the end leaves will sing us to sleep.
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released March 26, 2017

Engineered, mixed and produced by Sebi @ SOS Basement, Oberentfelden www.sos-basement.ch

Mastered by Dan Suter @ echochamber, Zürich
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Album Artwork by Carsten Wölke
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DEFENDER Baden, Switzerland

DEFENDER is a Post-Hardcore band formed in Baden Switzerland in 2014. The band decided to start this journey after the dissolving of their old bands. To create music, to share and to feel a sense of passion and emotions are probably the main reasons that keeps this band alive.
DEFENDER is known for their explosive live-shows with a lot of passion, emotions, honesty, and heartblood.
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Track Name: Until Dawn
In the place we’re calling our home
You’re sitting on it as it was your throne.
Still fighting me with brutality
I’m not your enemy

This is our fall!

Is this the thunder making bang, bang, bang, bang?
Is it dawn? I’m scared. It makes me sick!

Screeching eagles, they are hunting us down
In the land we call our own
We’ve called our own

Piling corpses faced down in the mud
Quenching their thirst by drinking our blood

I want to flee everyday
To give my life a sense again
You’re calling me a mistake
Instead of telling me that i am safe

Memories don’t fade
I was born into hate
In a place i can never live again.
You say that you can imagine
How alone i really am
This is not true!

No, this is not fucking true

We're brought up
To pull the trigger on ourselves.
Never knowing what we’re dying for
If you’re looking for answers
Turn the table around! turn the table around!

Is this the thunder making bang, bang, bang, bang?
Is it dawn? I’m scared. It makes me sick!

This sound makes me sick!

You are pointing at me
I’m not your enemy!
You are pointing at me
I’m not your enemy!


I want to flee everyday
To give my life a sense again
You’re calling me a mistake
Instead of telling me that i am safe

Memories don’t fade
I was born into hate
In a place i can never live again!
You say that you can imagine
How alone i really am
This is not true!

I’m begging for help
But you cast me out
I was begging for help
I was begging for help!
All i receive is hate!
Track Name: Empathy
seems like it never happened
i am crying for help
falling into the dark
feeling lost, alone and weak

i don’t remember days
i remember moments
my time’s arrived
you came into my life
insecure i was reckless with your love
poetry in my mind now is reading out loud
nothing lasts forever
except the war between my head and my heart

back then, i was blind, i was hurting your heart
the unknown freezes your veins
feelings get left behind

i’m questioning myself if you’re feeling the same
cause i can’t get you off my head
i’m questioning myself if you’re feeling the same
hope to find a way to break the ice

forcing myself to be cold
heat results from cold
i’ve felt love you can’t deny it
feelings change slower than thoughts

you blocked out the love that helped you to break the ice
and stabbed a knife into the scar that leads to my heart

my soul cries words that i never had the courage to say
it burns me up like the heat of the sun
you blocked out the love that helped you to break the ice
and stabbed a knife into the scar that leads to my heart

i’m questioning myself if you’re feeling the same
cause i can’t get you off my head
i’m questioning myself if you’re feeling the same
hope to find a way to break the ice
Track Name: Forgotten Soul
behind closed doors you’ll find your forgotten soul

Trees are thriving leaves again and i’m still the same
Never thought that i could
get into this emptiness
drowned in misery
A cold breeze touches my face
My soul escapes
And flies away
Asking me
When will you change?

I’m still sinking
I can’t believe it
I’m still sinking
My dreams are fading

I want to turn back time
I didn’t realise
That my best years were passing by
I want to change my mind!

I’m tired of thinking
Tired from the poison
I am drinking


I want to change my mind
Change the sight
Fly away to find a sense again
Everything i see looks completely the same
Hard to see that i can’t change the past
And turn back time
Ghosts obsess my life
Hunt the passion that keeps me alive

In the end we are born alone
We die alone
I’m falling asleep, ‘cause i’m tired of thinking
Tired from the poison i am drinking
I can feel the distance
Don’t fear the fall
Is there someone who’s hearing my call?

Where the flowers spread their colour
I’m falling asleep!
My eyes have lost their blossoms!
I’m tired of thinking
Tired from the poison i am drinking


and behind closed doors you’ll find your forgotten soul
Track Name: In Between Leaves (feat. David Lukas)
Where has the time gone?
Where have i been?
I want to see a difference
Where is the difference?

Let’s write a different history
That makes us feel alive
That makes us feel alive
We won’t fall if we hold together

We won’t fall if we hold together
Break your ego, it’s your own conviction
But sometimes water fills your lungs
While you are starring at the mirror
You can hardly sleep

Endless heights to bear
I'm struggling with grief and despair

As the poison fills my veins
Time wont tell as
As my head starting to ache
Time won’t tell




Things are getting harder!

Where has the time gone?
Where have i been?
I want to see a difference
Where is the difference?


Growing a tree takes a long time
But in the end wind streaks the woods
And leaves will sing us to sleep

Growing a tree
It takes a long time, but in the end
But in the end leaves will sing us to sleep
Leaves will sing us to sleep
Track Name: Dignity (feat. David Häusermann)
i can see the lies in your eyes
i always thought that we were closer than blood
but i was wrong, i wasn’t honest with me
we are not the same!

How can you still look into my face?
Your invisible lies make me feel like shit
all these times you had cheated on me
there’s no flame
i grab my bag ‘cause it’s the end of this game!

My friend!
Truth is we have changed
get away!
Pushing you away
My friend!
I’m leaving you with your selfishness!

We’re not the same
We will never be the same
we’re not the same
Anymore!

I had an illusion
you were standing right behind my back
i am trapped in that confusion
please let me free!

I guess things change
we don’t agree on anything
we are not the same anymore
and through all these times i’m forcing things to change
nothing changed!

Every part of me was waiting for your return
now i feel nothing, this is my goodbye
i don’t lie, reunited, i feel nothing, now i’m forcing
things to change
for as long as we need!


My friend!
Truth is we have changed
get away!
Pushing you away
i’m leaving you with your selfishness!

Please let me free!
Let me free!
Track Name: Lost // Tree
Lost

So then let's consider first of all what is a mind in the grip of vicious circles. Well, one of the most obvious instances that we all know is the phenomenon of worry. The doctor tells you that you have to have an operation. And that has been set up so that automatically everybody worries about it. But since worrying takes away your appetite and your sleep, it's not good for you. But you can't stop worrying and therefore you get additionally worried that you are worrying. And then furthermore because that is quite absurd and you're mad at yourself because you do it, you are worried because you are worried you are worried. That is a vicious circle



Tree

so then, let’s suppose that you were able every night to dream any dream you wanted to dream, and that you could for example have the power within one night to dream 75 years of time, or any length of time you wanted to have.

and you would, naturally, as you began on this adventure of dreams, you would fulfill all your wishes. You would have every kind of pleasure during your sleep. And after several nights of 75 years of total pleasure each you would say “Well that was pretty great”. But now let’s have a surprise, let’s have a dream which isn’t under control, where something is gonna happen to me that I don’t know what it's gonna be.

And you would dig that and would come out of that and you would say “Wow that was a close shave, wasn’t it?”. Then you would get more and more adventurous and you would make further- and further-out gambles what you would dream. And finally, you would dream where you are now.
Track Name: Tired Heart
Don’t you remember
the time when we used to sing along to our favourite songs?

Don’t you remember
Our long car drives and coffe talks, dreaming of our future
While we were counting the stars?


time stood still and now i realize
That we were never meant to be and right know it’s killing me


We tried so hard to hide our feelings
Seasons are changing and so did we
I spend hours and hours to find the words
But we forget that our eyes they speak instead


My heart is tired
I feel so heartless
My heart is cold
I am not the person i used to know


Now i lost myself
I am lost in the place where i don’t even recognice myself
Don’t you remember?
That i tried and tried, i am sick of trying. You are hiding in a place where not even my words can reach you
Now this is me trying to move on


We tried so hard to hide our feelings
Seasons are changing and so did we
I spend hours and hours to find the words
But we forget that our eyes they speak instead
Track Name: Lighthouse
we are the ones who were left out into the sea
Man overboard, the ship is sinking
We are the ones who were left out into the sea
Man overboard, the ship is sinking


We are the ones who were left out to the sea
With weary hands and heavy hearts what will be will be
We are the ones who were left out to the sea
We keep a promise and we wear it on our sleeve

There is always something worth living for
We won’t back down, won’t back down


Trading our hearts if they were made out of stone
Pushing us down until we break every bone
They don’t stop, won’t stop until everyone’s drowned
We won’t back down, we won’t back down
There is always something worth living for


When the sun goes down
And the night gets cold
Lighthouse shine the light for us

When the sun goes down
And the night gets cold
When the sun goes down
Lighthouse shine the light for us

Lighthouse shine the light for us,
Show us the way,
Illuminate

Show us the way, illuminate
Show us the way, we won’t be afraid
Show us the way, illuminate
We won’t be afraid




We are the ones who were left out into the sea
We won’t try to make rough water smooth
Living our dream
With weary hands and heavy hearts
What will be, will be
Track Name: Déjà Vu
I did this to myself
All i wanted was to see you here with me
I’ve lost my reasons and i didn’t see
That i don’t recognise you anymore
Where are you hiding the person i used to know?
Where are you hiding the person i used to know?


If we’ll ever meet again
When we are older
Will i be right for you and you’ll be right for me
I will be wondering and you’ll be questioning
If i am something to your thoughts ‘cause
You are everything to my heart
When will we ever meet again?
I will be counting until then

You were the poison in my blood
That let my heart stand still
I didn’t get it
My eyes were blind,
My mind was filled
With dreams i wished to be real
It shouldn’t be
We were in a cage
We were not free

I’m not alone
I’m just on my own
I wasn’t free
You were not free
As same as me

Was it not my fault
That it has come to the point of no return
Have i felt the same
At the same point,
At this one day

Wasn’t strong enough
Wish i could erase my faults
I did the same to you
Sorry... I did the same to you

I can see the tears in your eyes
The same tears i was spilling
In front of your eyes
A deja vu, it can’t be true
I miss you, i hate you, i needed you

I needed you
Where have you been?

Finally we have met again
And we are older
I’m still not right for you and you’re not right for me
I keep wondering and you keep questioning
I’m still nothing to your thoughts and you are everything to my heart
I hope we’ll never meet again
Our time has now come to an end
Track Name: Pages
I’m lying here another night
Can’t get rid of these thoughts
I am losing it wide awake
Can’t drown the demons
Too much time to think

i’m waking up
Just to fall asleep
I’m waking up
Just to fall asleep
My fire will not fade
I’ll find a reason to live
My water will not dry
I’ll find a reason to breath
Cause i’ve got nothing to lose

Will i ever find a reason why?
Will i ever find a meaning?
The last years went too fast
I’m not the same, will i be the same


I’m lying here another night
Can’t get rid of these thoughts
I’m losing it wide awake
Can’t drown the demons
Too much time to think

I follow my heart!

My fire will not fade
My water will not dry
Cause i’ve got nothing to lose
My fire will not fade
When i follow my heart

I follow my heart!
Track Name: Heartblood
Heartblood
We keep this fire inside our chest
Heartblood
We promise we will give our best
Heartblood
We keep this fire inside our chest
Heartblood
And nothing will tear us apart


Brothers with heart and blood
Connected by things that we hate and love
Brothers with heart and blood
Through thick and thin
Life has connected our hearts

One step one breath
This is all i’ve got
You say that i’m a fool
Why can’t you just stop

One word one act
This is all i’ve got
I’m holding onto hope
We carry heartblood

We are walking together
We are standing side by side


We carry our home right within in our hearts
Within our hearts
There is a fire inside
We carry our home right within in our hearts
Within our hearts
There is a fire inside

We keep this fire inside our chest
We promise we will give our best
They try to pour down cold water
We are growing and they’re just getting older


Heartblood
Don’t criticize us
If you never put your heart into something
Heartblood
This what we’re living for,
Heartblood
This is all or nothing


One step one breath
This is all i’ve got
You say that i’m a fool
Why can’t you just stop

One word one act
This is all i’ve got
I’m holding onto hope
We carry heartblood

We are walking together
We are standing side by side
Devided we fall
United we stand

Friends stay friends forever
Even if things go wrong
Through thick and thin
We don’t need a reason
It’s worth living for
It’s worth living for
We carry heartblood